Saturday, November 01, 2008
Fantastic 22
This is like the most memorable day ever. Minus away the fact that I'm growing older, this year I celebrated my 22nd downunder. Most fantastic birthday.Apart from the celebration and all, personally for myself, this is going to be a very significant year for me. 21 to 22, I've stepped out of my comfort zone and i've done and going to do many many things I've never thought of. I'm scared, that I won't deny, but unlike the past, I'm not going to step back.I've received the best blessing and i'm still counting them. I'm not a Christian christian, but God has been and is still very much a big part of my life since he came into my life back then. I don't go to church, I don't pray to him diligently every day, but I never forgotten him. And I'm sure he knows I've never forgotten him. God has really blessed me in my ways, and given to me what I thought I would never have and what I never dreamed of having. There were times he closed many doors. Was he trying to tell me that what he has planned for me is right ahead? I've mistaken and blamed him at some point in time because I couldn't understand why he had to make things so difficult for me. I was sorry and I prayed to him. He gave me the courage to stand up and not cry. Now, he has blessed me with what I never dreamed of. He gave me things and showed me the way in the past. Many of which I was too afraid, I didn't dare to go ahead. One of which I took a step forward, and it was too much for me to handle, I took a step back. It hurt me, it hurt the other party. I just couldn't do it. He forgiven me, he let me recover, and he gives me more courage and strength. Now, he feels its time for my big step. Whether or not i'm going to take it depends on myself. I choose my life, he supports me. No matter what I do, I know he'll be there for me.Dear Lord, there's no turning back now. I don't want to turn back. This is it. You've prep me up for this. You've given me a new meaning to life, something I've been searching for but never dreamt of having. I'm going to treasure it. Thank you so much.
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