...Double vision...

Monday, March 12, 2007

a response to someone i treasure..
i don't know how many times i may need to say this in the future, but
你知道我不善於表達情感
我已發現你那麽的安靜
從一開始我就知道
可是我能做什麽？
what can i do?

要我問你發生了什麽事嗎？
那我因該怎麽問？？
a simple what happen?
why suddenly so quiet?
or.....
要我如何開口？？

如果我問你。。
我會得到什麽答案？
你一定會說沒事。。
還是這個答案只是我自以爲是的想法？

我不了解。。
why do pple have so many different expectations on me?

i tried to keep a distance so that you wouldnt feel weird
but you kept a even further distance away from us!!
so what am i suppose to do?
handcuff your hand to mine?
we'll never be apart this way.

爲什麽這麽難？
我沒辦法了解！！
我不跟他說那麽多話
就是爲了要讓你不會覺得那麽的奇怪
i do not direct the conversation to anybody
the conversation is free for all to answer
but you just kept quiet
難道一定要我開口問你怎麽了？
要我怎麽問？

you're not the only one feeling this way
i do too!
i felt that over lunch..
i was in a totally different field, i didnt know who and what everyone was talking about
這代表了我們大家的距離嗎？
i felt that when both of you were exchanging numbers..
因爲沒人會因爲興趣或工作上的需要來聯絡我
我們是不同世界的人
不會有一天會有再見到面的
除非是另一個聚會
nobody asked me how i was doing
but i have no complains, because i know there's nothing they want and need to know about me
我的EQ掉到谷底

你知道我的性格
你也看到了
我不是一個hugs person
這也是所謂的‘不善於表達情感’
不是嗎？
then why do you still have such expectation on me?

我讓你失望了。
可是我也幫不了我自己
我能夠接受touchyness
可是我不會這麽做
because i can't overcome this barrier
關懷的方式不一樣
不是我的錯

我只想說
我沒忽略你
只是我不懂得如何照顧你
對不起
我會場時改近
可是你會教我嗎？
will you teach me how to react?
how to show what i'm feeling?

i am always saying its easier said than done
because i always believe in it
because i can tell pple what to do
but i can never do it myself
i can tell myself what to do
but i can never do it
the thoughts never substanced into actions

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oinked on 9:08 PM

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