Thursday, May 04, 2006
played with azel's tarot card game on her phone.. and it says that my health will improve if it's not gd now.. but it seems to be getting worse.. coz from a flu, i got sore throat.. and i'm like getting cough now.. that bad throat is on for like 1 weeks already.. and just as its getting better i think i'm getting cough. flu is better.. now only got super blovked up nose.. damn!! my entire system is going haywire can.. argh!!ok.. i'm suppose to be studying for tmr's rad anatomy.. but i'm like too bored looking at all the CT slices.. i had to do something else to keep me awake.. sch's been tiring, and everything seems to b difficult. i know nuts abt patho, and nothing abt rad anatomy and imaging. everything sucks.. i don't know what i'm gonna do come next wk when amarjit is back and the quizes starts for imaging.saw ASH online and she asked abt sch.. and till she asked abt how everything was.. i realise how screwed up everything was. i nv took the time, or rather running away from thinking abt some stuff.. i just lived by days. how screwed up the time table was, how screwed up I WAS. how i faired in my quizes.. they sound as though they are still OK.. but in fact i'm performing BELOW AVERAGE! or so i think.. everyone's doing so well.. i'm so stressed up now.. and i don't seem to be doing much abt it.Dad asked if i wanna try out for the NHC thing.. i don't think i am going to... i have some considerations in mind and having to work immediately after a dip isnt part of my plan, or my parents. i think i'm gonna get down to doing some emailing to get some answers to my quetions.ASH also got me thinking of relationship stuff.. not BGR lah.. friendship... think she heard some stuffs here and there.. i don't know who specifically lah.. but yeah.. its been 3 weeks.. i think i don't really mix much with the other 2 gals now.. somehow we have lots of lessons apart.. and some other stuff lah.. shall not go into details.. think ASH (if she happens to read this) would understand.. i don't wanna think too much ba.. and i don't wanna think to the bad side..at least i know that i'm not currently at this stage whereby i'm committed to my frens, and i'm willing to give away.. just for them, as if they are like my loved ones.. but find out how foolish i am to do so when most of them wouldnt do the same as wad i'd do.at least now i don't end up laughing at myself for doing alot of things..... that would be taken for granted..oh well.. lets face it.. life aint always as beautiful as it seems..there are projects this yr.. projects that i don't wanna do.. beh sci project for one seems to be horror.. have to do a 30min presentation. my group are all the high flyers.. i cant slack either.. but with some one whom don't participate at all in your meetings, so what if u're a high flyer.. u see.. u have to put in some effort. i know i am.. i know we all r.. no matter how much u don't wish to do it.. face it.. u have to do it.. and so since u have to do it.. do it well.. do it to the best of ur abilities.. at least.. try.. See, once in a while… once in a blue moon, people will surprise you. Once in a while people may even take your breath away. That's what you have to believe. ~Grey's
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