Not too sure what has happened to me today.. or should i say recently.. getting frustrated easily.. and getting very impatient... i should start staying away from MSN and start going out there to communicate with pple?? can't tolerate when pple ask too many qns.. and just don't feel like answering them at all!

but dont worry too much coz it's not the threshold yet.. coz i'm not abt to explode just as yet.. and somehow when i look at that person.. i just don't have anymore frustration already.

dont know whether i'm frustrated with myself or simply the pple ard me.. i don't like to talk anymore and i don't feel like talking anymore. seems like i'm losing the ability to communicate... the ability to talk? oh crap. i should just go out more.. so pple.. please get me away from school.. get me away from home... get me out into the society!!!!

somehow seems like i predicted today to be a really bad day last night.. was talking to Z and darling.. complaining abt how terrible my day was.. obviously they werent that good an outlet coz they simply ignored me.. so i gave up after 1 sentence... :S

really tired lately.. my health is failing me.. i need to catch up with more exercises(even shirlene says i look tired everyday!!).. perhaps going out for more exercises will make me less tired.. build up the stamina.. argh!!!

was almost late for lesson today.. of coz it wasnt as bad since it was amarjit lesson and not jamila's.. coz if it was jamila's i'm prob late.. VJ's lesson was really.. boring.. or shld i put it this way.. i was really tired... it's like yawning and tearing away!!!! what's happening!!! but the Z-monster kept clear after a while... which was gd... pOrKy vs Z-moster!!!

on the way hm.. saw an accident over at serangoon going lor chuan(i think it's there) don't really know the names byt saw the 2 scdf bikers zoom past... like 3 mins ltr.. then see the fire engine behind.. (sounding siren but like not moving very fast--> relative to the bus) like another 3 mins ltr.. then see police car... and finally the bus passed by the accident site.. the fire engine seem to have jammed up the whole lane.. till cars like cannot turn in..

so.. why am i posting this here? coz i think i watch too much tv.. i used to think of the whole process and something very magnificent and cool! like first the police car zoom pass.. followed closely the 2 bikers and the fire engine behind.. with the cool looking fire fighters on board. then the ambulance zooms pass behind as well.. of coz them sounding their siren and all lah.. but seems like in reality.. only the fire fighters on board parts was true.. that zooming pass this like... ermm... ok.. it did zoom pass lah.. but i tot it would have been cooler... :X

my first night driving lesson today.. not used to it.. roads at night is really scarier at night!!! and did a new route today.. it was a 3 lane big road over at eunos link... (i think it's eunos link) did lots of U-turns today.. and i mean LOTS... lots of car out there.. and when u look into the rear mirror.. it's just lots of lights... then when i need to cut from extreme left to extreme right.. abit scared when i see all the cars like gonna charge towards u.. **sweat** or maybe it's just me..

screwed up parking... cant do it.. just cant o it.. cant park the left lot.. get very confused.. and just cant get it right.. can see anything!!!! argh!!!! 3 pt turn was slow today.. ave of 30s for 1 turn.. which my instructor says is quite slow...

lots of red lights esp the one on the slope towards kaki bukit estate or smthing.. engine did not stall at the slope~ getting the hang of the pull up handbrake-get biting pt on amber- let go handbrake-accelerate fwd drill.. though i still don't exactly get the "reach biting pt" feel.. but can roughly get the amt of clutch to release.. then again.. maybe the few times i tried today.. lucky lucky reach.. hehe!!

also.. getting the hang of breaking smoothly without any jerk.. however my moving off still kinda sucked.. instructor kept saying i don't accelerate enough at the starting..

use so much of clutch today.. my left foot tired leh.. haha!!! then keep changing gear... hand also tired... hehe!!! ok.. stop complaining.. but can i just say one last thing.. brain tired leh... the only thing that came to my mind after the lesson was... "why pple like to drive??? very taxing on the brain leh!"

bottom line.. i really feel very drained out after driving.. why is this so? i thought i used to find it really fun and exciting?

another accident was sighted during driving.. this time only got the police car and an ambulance.. (no more fire engine lah..) so why am i talking abt this again? welll coz i have a few last words: that is.. ma3 lu4 ru2 hu2 kou3.. take care everyone...

did a test... quite interesting... my results? i don't like who i am.. but still i'm..

Kermit the Frog
You scored 66% Organization, 55% abstract, and 71% extroverted!

First, this test measured how organized you are. Some muppets like Cookie Monster make big messes, while others like Bert are quite anal about things being clean.

Second, this test measured if you prefer a concrete or an abstract viewpoint. For the purposes of this test, concrete people are considered to gravitate more to mathematical and logical approaches, whereas abstract people are more the dreamers and artistic type.

Third, this test measured if you are more of an introvert or an extrovert. By definition, an introvert concentrates more on herself and an extrovert focuses more on others. In this test an introvert was somebody that either tends to spend more time alone or thinks more about herself.

You are mostly organized, both concrete and abstract, and more extroverted.

Here is why are you Kermit the Frog.

You are both somewhat organized. You have a good idea where you put things and you probably keep your place reasonably clean. You aren't totally obsessed with neatness though. Kermit is also reasonably tidy. He'll even dress up for interviews.

You both are sometimes concrete and sometimes abstract thinkers. Kermit spends a lot of his time as a reporter collecting facts, but he is also the author of the dreamy song "The Rainbow Connection." You have a good balance in your life. You know when to be logical at times, but you also aren't afraid to explore your dreams and desires... within limits of course.

You are both extroverts. Kermit gets along with everyone. Sure a few folks annoy him, but that's just because they are annoying. Kermit likes to meet new people when he does his job as a street reporter. You definitely enjoy the company of others, and you don't have problems meeting new people... in fact you probably look forward to it. You are willing to take charge when necessary or work as part of a team.